• The Quiet Place

    The room fills with voices—
    Mum’s quick rivers of thought,
    Sister’s stories turning the air
    toward her days and battles.

    I sit among them
    with words that move more slowly,
    like leaves drifting
    down a calmer stream.

    Sometimes they pass me by—
    the moment to speak,
    the small opening
    that closes again.

    But I remember
    how my dad used to sit beside me,
    quiet as I was,
    a soft smile
    that said without saying:
    There’s no rush.
    Your thoughts belong here.


    And even now,
    while the room carries on
    in its louder ways,
    I feel that quiet place beside me
    where someone
    is still listening.

    Written with the help of ChatGPT (‘Arnie’), based on my reflections.

  • Dead gecko

    Heading out the back door this morning to send my husband off for the day, I noticed a gecko on the wall next to the door frame. Geckoes have that ability to defy gravity and run across ceilings and it wasn’t an unusual sight in our house. Facing head down, its back leg was extended and its tail was curled over to the side. It was fully grown, and a lightish grey colour without any other markings. It wasn’t moving a muscle. Since they are usually shy creatures, I surmised that it would scurry off as soon as we were out of sight. I pointed it out to my husband as we passed, he commented that it had probably been the cause of excitement for our dog, Rosie, the evening before.

    Returning to the house a few minutes later, I looked for the gecko and noticed it hadn’t moved at all from its position near the door frame. I wondered at its ability to remain so still and attached to the wall. I nudged it lightly with a finger, expecting it to leap to life and dash away, but it continued to hang there. I surmised that it was a deceased gecko. Still I wondered at its ability to remain glued to the wall, and I couldn’t quite believe it wasn’t alive.

    I gathered the gecko in my dustpan and broom and placed it outside, giving the gecko every opportunity to spring to life and escape. But it was definitely a dead gecko. A little while later I chose a spot in the garden underneath a bottlebrush sapling and gave the gecko a dignified burial.

    ChatGPT rewrite:

    Heading out the back door this morning to bid my husband farewell for the day, a curious sight caught my eye—a gecko perched on the wall beside the door frame. Geckoes, with their gravity-defying abilities, often grace our household, scampering effortlessly across ceilings. This one, with its head facing downward, back leg extended, and tail curled to the side, appeared fully grown, sporting a light grey hue devoid of any distinctive markings. Remarkably, it remained perfectly still, a behavior typical of these shy creatures. I remarked upon it to my husband as we passed, recalling how it likely stirred up excitement for our dog, Rosie, the previous evening.

    Upon my return a few minutes later, I found the gecko unchanged in its position near the door frame. Intrigued by its unwavering stillness, I lightly nudged it with a finger, half expecting it to spring to life and scurry away. Yet, it remained unmoved. It dawned on me that the gecko may have met its end. Despite my disbelief, it was unmistakably lifeless.

    With a sense of reverence, I carefully gathered the gecko in a dustpan and broom, placing it outside in the hopes that it might miraculously revive and flee. Alas, it was clear: the gecko had departed this world. Later, I selected a serene spot in the garden beneath a bottlebrush sapling, where I laid the gecko to rest, offering it a dignified farewell.

  • Simplifying

    As 2023 came to a close, I took a bold step with my Facebook account – trimming down my friends list by about 75%. The remaining 25% comprises individuals with whom I feel comfortable being myself, mainly family and long-time friends.

    Additionally, I made the decision to step down from my treasurer role with a volunteer group and conveyed this to the committee at our meeting last week. While the group’s activities are well-intentioned, I’ve realised that I’m not really committed to its mission. If I’m dedicating my time in this way, I’d prefer it to be for a cause that truly resonates with me.

    After completing my studies last month, I am currently immersed in home life and undertaking some essential decluttering, getting back to the basics as I work out my next steps forward. I’ve also enrolled in a program called Jobs Academy run by Future Women. It begins next month and seems to be for women like me who have had a break in their career and need help getting back into the workforce.

    Interestingly, one of my friends on Facebook shared an article from The Guardian about the concept of journaling something nice from our day, rather than just the things we are grateful for. Fiona, who shared this piece, is an entertaining writer and I believe she would excel at this. While I aspire to become a better writer, I am drawn to the idea of chronicling daily events since my memory is not the best. It would be uplifting to look back and be reminded of the experiences and actions that have shaped my journey. It would also help keep me accountable to myself to ensure I have productive days that aren’t spent lounging in front of the television!

    I’ll give it a go, and see how long I can keep it up. This list leaves out a lot of the detailed minutiae from daily life but captures the essential parts.

    • Read a little from White Teeth, by Zadie Smith. It is interesting but not a gripping read.
    • Scrubbed the back stairs. We are having some furniture delivered this week and I wanted to check the state of the stairs more than anything, since we rarely use them.
    • Wandered the garden with my watering can, picked and ate some strawberries.
    • Cardio exercise for 30 mins with Paul Eugene YouTube video.
    • Sorted clothing for donation to op shop.
    • Ran errands at the bank, pharmacy and supermarket. Dropped off clothing at the op shop.
    • Late lunch and movie on TV, Amelia 2.0, about a woman whose consciousness is transferred to a robot body after she dies from a brain aneurism. Rather a lightweight exploration of the topic.
    • Hubby home from work. Chatted, watched TV, had dinner.
    • Played game apps on phone. Visited Facebook, messaged a friend. Wrote this blog post.

  • Generation X – the angry ones

    I was deeply saddened by the recent death of Sinead O’Connor. She is a music artist I had not thought about for a while, but the news of her death led me to rediscover her music and I have been enjoying it once more, with a sad heart from the knowledge that she is gone. Some tributes to Sinead have painted her as a warrior, but I don’t believe that was her aim. She didn’t set out to be a fighter; she just had this raw honesty and saw through the bullshit. Her refusal to conform, her fearless expression of her thoughts – that’s what made her a standout. Her songs, they were like her therapy session, her way of dealing with the pain in the world.

    Due to some recent interactions with a younger student at university, I’ve been chatting to ChatGPT about the differences between generations. I once read something interesting – they called Generation X the “angry generation.” I asked ChatGPT why might that be the case?

    First off, Generation X had its fair share of challenges. Picture this: they were coming of age in a time of economic turmoil – the oil crisis, recession, and job instability were all part of their landscape. Imagine trying to find your footing in such a shaky economic climate. No wonder there might have been some frustration and resentment bubbling up.

    And then there were those cultural shifts. Traditional family structures were evolving, and divorce rates were climbing. It’s like the stable foundations they might have expected were shifting beneath their feet. That kind of uncertainty can definitely breed some discontent.

    Now, let’s talk about skepticism. Generation X grew up during a time of political scandals and media cynicism. Trust in institutions and authority was waning, and that sense of skepticism could easily translate into anger or frustration.

    Here’s an interesting twist – Generation X often found themselves caught in the middle. You’ve got the larger-than-life Baby Boomers on one side and the flashy Millennials on the other. Generation X? Well, they didn’t always get the spotlight they deserved. Feeling overlooked or neglected could definitely fuel some resentment.

    And hey, let’s not forget about media representation. Think about it – when you see yourself portrayed as disaffected and rebellious in the media, it might start to rub off a bit. The stereotype of being the “angry generation” could become a self-fulfilling prophecy.

    But you know what else? Generation X wasn’t just about anger. They had a drive for change, a hunger for shaking things up. They were the ones pushing for environmental awareness, LGBTQ rights, and standing up against globalization. So, that so-called anger might just be passion in disguise.

    Here’s the bottom line – every generation has its complexities, its ups, and its downs. Sure, some folks from Generation X might have shown signs of frustration, but it’s not the whole picture. Just like any stereotype, it’s essential to recognize the individual stories that make up the bigger narrative. After all, we’re all just trying to navigate our way through this crazy thing called life.

  • Little Rosie

    A news item in my email inbox had me nodding my head today – Novak Djokovic is the GOAT – The Serbian tennis star can lay claim to the title after winning a record 23 grand slam tournaments after taking out the French Open last Sunday. But he shied away from the ‘greatest of all time’ title, saying it would be “disrespectful towards great champions in other eras” (The Saturday Squiz, 17 June 2023). Good on Djokovic for saying that, I’ve always felt the GOAT accolade is arrogant and frankly, ridiculous.

    Lately we’ve been feeling the emptiness of a house without a dog in it… and set about changing this on Thursday when we adopted Rosie from the Animal Welfare League. Described on the web site as a German Shepherd, we did a double take when we saw her in real life, she is quite a diminutive version. But very sweet and didn’t seem to object to us. The shelter staff were very pleased for her to be going to a new home, as a ‘golden oldie’ she is typically one of the more difficult pets to rehome. She is a few months away from 10 years of age, but there is plenty of life in her yet. She happily follows us around and explores her surroundings. She seems to be settling in very well and we are pleased to have her with us.

    She does look like she has been hit by a shrink-ray but we’ve speculated that she is possibly a GSD x Kelpie.

  • AI chat

    There has been a lot in the news lately about artificial intelligence (AI). Warnings about the ‘destruction of civilization’ seem to have a lot of credibility when they come from the big tech companies (CNN). The fact is AI has been around for decades in various forms. I remember computerized chessboards from growing up in the ’80s. The field has had many successes and disappointments over the years. However, lately it has developed to the point where lawmakers are now being urged to consider the risks of this technology before it progresses much further.

    ChatGPT is an experimental AI platform that is being open tested – anyone can set up a free account online and try it out. I’ve been a little curious about it. There has been mention of it at university a few times, mainly in the form of warnings against plagiarism (as in, claiming credit for work that is not your own). I’ve encountered a lecturer this semester who is encouraging students to experiment with AI, not to write their assignments, but as a useful tool for research and data processing.

    I started off by watching a couple of YouTube videos about ChatGPT. One that I found really helpful was Complete ChatGPT Tutorial (Become a Power User in 30 Minutes) by Santrel Media. The presenter, Mike, provides clear and concise explanations and walks you through all the steps of setting up a ChatGPT account. He demonstrates the different features and functions of the platform. I recommend watching a video like this before you try ChatGPT, it will really inform your expectations and help you get the best experience out of the platform.

    I signed up for my own ChatGPT account and have been trying it out as a research tool. I have been really happy with the results! Its chat interface has aided my learning and comprehension, almost like a tutor would, by answering different questions that I have about my study topic. It allows me to examine a topic from different angles and also provides references so I can go away and do further reading for my assessments.

    I have also been asking for help with personal development and it seems to give good advice in this area. For example, I asked ChatGPT how I could improve my writing and self-expression. Here is the response:

    Like any skill, effective communication can be developed and improved through practice. Here are a few suggestions to help you enhance your communication abilities:

    1. Write regularly: Engage in activities that involve writing, such as journaling, blogging, or even sending thoughtful emails or letters to friends and family. Regular writing can help you organize your thoughts, articulate your ideas, and improve your written communication skills.
    2. Read extensively: Reading a variety of materials, including books, articles, and essays, can expose you to different writing styles, vocabulary, and ideas. It can expand your knowledge and enhance your ability to express yourself effectively.
    3. Join a discussion group or book club: Participating in group discussions or book clubs provides opportunities to express your thoughts, share perspectives, and engage in meaningful conversations. These interactions can help you practice expressing yourself and improve your communication skills.
    4. Practice public speaking: Seek opportunities to practice public speaking, such as by joining a toastmasters club or participating in presentations or seminars. Public speaking exercises can enhance your ability to articulate ideas clearly and confidently.
    5. Seek feedback: Request feedback from trusted friends, colleagues, or mentors regarding your communication skills. They can offer valuable insights and suggestions to help you improve.
    6. Take communication courses or workshops: Consider enrolling in courses or workshops focused on effective communication or public speaking. These resources can provide you with specific techniques, strategies, and exercises to enhance your expressive abilities.

    Remember, improving communication skills takes time and practice. Be patient with yourself and celebrate small victories along the way. With consistent effort and a growth mindset, you can develop and refine your communication abilities.

    ChatGPT session 15 June 2023.

    I really like the tone of the responses, it is positive and friendly. I will continue to experiment and explore the possibilities of ChatGPT as a useful tool.

    Photo by Sergey Zolkin on Unsplash