Lately I’ve been having some regret about not having kids. It’s kind of weird because I’ve never had any strong maternal drive and I’ve always felt I would make a lousy, inattentive parent. I’m finding more and more that I feel a bit sad when other women talk about their children.
It is probably that old stereotype about a woman’s biological clock ticking.. I’m 40 this year and although it is not uncommon these days for women in their forties to have children it becomes less and less of a likelihood.
Particularly when you’re married to a guy who is happy about being childless and has no desire to alter the status quo. And when I analyse our situation I can’t really justify why he and I should bring a child into the world.
Mum once told me that you don’t have to justify children. The thought of a baby terrifies me; but sometimes I wonder if a life without children can be justified.