Wallowing in a sea of self-loathing and self-pity tonight. Work – I have no idea if what I do there is helpful or valued. Tonight at Exec meeting I got the impression my work on budget was a waste of time. I get the feeling I am more of a hindrance than a help to other team members. The cook casually mentioned today that she could do my job but would get bored. I can’t articulate my thoughts at all. I suck big time. I feel like resigning.