Sometimes, I feel like I’m slowly going insane. The older I get, the deeper entrenched I am in this personality, which shies away from other people. I am distracted and lost for what to say most of the time. I’m turning into a grumpy, grunting cave woman.
Went for a medical check up this morning. I’ve been having some dizzy spells and wondered if it was a blood pressure thing. Blood pressure normal, which is good of course. Felt a bit foolish, truth be told. Hard to explain your physical symptoms when you’re not sure if they aren’t psychological. This is so silly but I think I would have been relieved to have something physically wrong with me.
I have these moments of desperation, where depression looms and I feel I’ve tried everything to overcome it, and it is hopeless. Then I practice some of the expansion and acceptance therapy I’ve learned recently and it eases off a little.