I don’t know when it started. I guess I was always shy, with shy parents, and moving around changing schools so often didn’t help. It seems the older I get the worse it feels, this anxiety around people. I have to work real hard to feel normal, most times I’m churned up inside putting on a game face. But as I’ve got older the game face has failed me a few times. It’s lonely, and it’s depressing. It seems so silly when I rationalise, but I just can’t seem to break past it.