My mood has dipped in recent months and I’ve been having some blue days. On Monday I was in a very bad way, would have called in sick at work but had to be there to process pays since I’m the only one who knows what to do. It was dreadful I could barely concentrate and I kept breaking down into tears, such horrible negative self-hating thoughts were going through my head.
I closed the blinds and doors to my office and tried to work through it. Later in the morning one of my co-workers came in to see me about something and noticed the state I was in (was Janelle, the same lady I had a slight blue with a few weeks ago). I’m so grateful to her she didn’t act embarrassed or pretend not to notice, she showed genuine concern and was very kind to me. Later on I also confided in Ros about the trouble I was having and she was also very supportive.
The following day I decided to take the day off work and see my GP. I wasn’t really sure whether he could do anything for me but I had a very pleasant surprise, we discussed in some detail what I was feeling and the circumstances and my background. We reviewed my medication and have increased my daily dose for a while, and he wrote up a referral to a psychologist for me.
Part of the referral process was to do a care plan with the clinic nurse, so I returned a little while later to see Jill. She had a stack of reference material ready for me and we chatted for over an hour. She said I should hear from the psychologist in about a week. I’m feeling really positive about this, I hope to finally address the issues that have caused a lot of misery over the years.