Had a thought recently, that my pride is at the root of my low self-esteem. Which seems a little ironic, but I think that it means I frequently set myself up to fail by being prideful and demanding perfection of myself.
I’ve also been reflecting on a couple of comments people have made to me about myself. It seems I present myself in a very neutral way. Ros said that I am sometimes unreadable, but she finds that a good thing because I’m not trying to influence her one way or another. Denis said that with me, there is no game playing or trying to work out the true meaning behind what I say.
I guess I am always in deadly earnest and I think this means I don’t have the knack for the social lubrication which makes interactions pleasant. I am too ready to accept and present things at face value.