Having just enrolled in business studies, that will take me the best of four years to complete; taking on the company secretary role in addition to my existing employed role as business manager; I seem to be forever trying to fill a gap in my life. A gap of loneliness, a gap of purpose. I instinctively present a face to the world of someone who is smart and engaged and connected. The reality seems so different. I feel like a machine who has switched off sensitivity to pain from most human interactions, because it is so unbearable.
I am developing myself every day. My mind, my body. Why not my social resilience. I will look for ways to build this aspect in my daily life and forever try to make those connections, and not be too discouraged if they don’t happen.