Category: Daily Life

I don’t know when it started. I guess I was always shy, with shy parents, and moving around changing schools so often didn’t help. It seems the older I get the worse it feels, this anxiety around people. I have to work real hard to feel normal, most times I’m churned up inside putting on a game face. But as I’ve got older the game face has failed me a few times. It’s lonely, and it’s depressing. It seems so silly when I rationalise, but I just can’t seem to break past it.

Some nice sort of weather today, light rain overnight, still cloudy with the sun popping through now and then, not hot but nice. Love it when the garden gets a good watering.

 That zucchini looks much bigger in the photo than it did in real life!

Which looks more relaxed? A seaside holiday does that to you.

Lime Cottage, Burnett Heads (top), Bundaberg Botanic Gardens (bottom)

From Nov 6 daily meditation at LivingLifeFully.com

By making ourselves do whatever is possible, we can help ourselves to become the people we wish to be. By sticking to our decisions in life, we can help ourselves to grow and develop into wiser, more compassionate people. We can enter management at work and grow professionally, we can strengthen relationships and grow emotionally, or we can take our hobbies to new levels and grow creatively.

Or we can just sit back and watch TV all day and all evening. We can be passive consumers of other people’s efforts.

From Eclectic Energies:

Enneagram Type 5 – The Investigator
Thinkers who tend to withdraw and observe

People of this personality type essentially fear that they don’t have enough inner strength to face life, so they tend to withdraw, to retreat into the safety and security of the mind where they can mentally prepare for their emergence into the world. Fives feel comfortable and at home in the realm of thought. They are generally intelligent, well read and thoughtful and they frequently become experts in the areas that capture their interest. While they are sometimes scientifically oriented, especially with the Six wing, just as many Fives are drawn to the humanities and it is not at all uncommon for Fives to have artistic inclinations. Fives are often a bit eccentric; they feel little need to alter their beliefs to accommodate majority opinion, and they refuse to compromise their freedom to think just as they please. The problem for Fives is that while they are comfortable in the realm of thought, they are frequently a good deal less comfortable when it comes to dealing with their emotions, the demands of a relationship, or the need to find a place for themselves in the world. Fives tend to be shy, nonintrusive, independent and reluctant to ask for the help that others might well be happy to extend to them.
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